Depression

I'm blogging supa early in the morning today, it's not because I'm awake already! But it's because I have not sleep AT ALL yet! -.-

Recently I have been procrastinating every single thing in my life.

Some friends have already know that I left my employment with a recruitment firm 2 weeks back. It has been a tough decision, but I'm glad that I left. On 2nd week of June, I went for interviews and was offered by 5 companies (Corporate Sales Positions). However, I only make my final decision yesterday afternoon.

Finalizing my answers has been very tough for me. I was never like that before.

I am known for being supa decisive since young. But recently, I felt that I have lost the decision-making skill that I had.

Not only this, for my wedding gowns.. just few hours ago, I decided to change 4 of the gowns that I have choosen last month. My wedding shoot is on next Tuesday.

Initially I was only considering whether to choose A or B as my Actual Day evening gown. Now I want to change 4 out of 5. Someone kill me now please!

I just went to google to search about Symptoms of Depression and out of 9, I kana 7.

1) Depressed Mood

2) Decreased Interest or Pleasure

3) Sleep Disturbances - Insomnia/Sleeping too much (I KANA BOTH!)

4) Fatigue

5) Feeling of worthlessness or guilt

6) "Brain" Fog

7) Psychomotor Agitation

I damn lost now. :(