The 3s

To begin with, other than my marriage.. it has not really been an awesome month.

Perhaps of sensitive and stubborn nature, I break down easily. A short sentence of blunt can kill my dignity. But this is not what we should carry the next 20, 30 or maybe 40 years of our lives. I will always remember what my dad told me before I got married to Ernest.

Dad: Girl girl, you are now a grown up. Papa has no request from you but I need you to promise and fulfill the 3s listed below.

1. You must be a good wife.
2. You must be a good daughter-in-law.
3. You must be a good mother.

My tears flowed immediately. To the extreme that it didn't stop until Baby tried to pacify me. My tears were not because of a particular emotion streaming in my body. The 3s brought me back to the past when I was still staying with my family. The 3s brought me to the future, where how I will be once I get married, once I officially become Mrs Tham. The 3s also brought me to the future where our kids will be running around us in a few years time.

It made me wonder, am I able to successfully manage the fulfills that my dad would want me to achieve.

I came from a broken family.. or let's put it in this way, my parents were not in good terms ever since I was born. To the extend whereby if there is only 1 wish for me to make, I still want both of my parents to be my parents in next life. But perhaps with another partner.

Recently, whatever I do.. I will always think twice, "will this have any negative impact on me being a good wife, daughter-in-law or a mother in the future?". But who knows? :)